my dream may be about zombies chasing me…. i can fight back and kill the zombies in my dream.
my dream may be about me failing an exam…. i can study for my real exam when i wake up so that i don’t actually fail it
but this time
my dream is about the demise of my still alive family member.
not going to say how the dream went about just because
i am superstitious
but all i can do is to cry and cry and cry
because i am utterly helpless.
can i do anything to not feel so helpless?
and so i prayed.
I prefer a man who sins and repents to one who does not sin and does not repent. The first has good thoughts, for he admits that he is sinful. But the second has false, soul-destroying thoughts, for he imagines himself to be righteous.
- Abba Poemen the Great
i brought le boyfrind to my high school’s biennial fund-raising carnival.
funny conversation that we had:
me: “there are so many young and pretty girls around here. did any of the girls catch your eye?”
him: (annoyed) “they are all too young for me.”
me: “you sure?”
him: (angrily) “my friends may go around ‘planting seeds’ but for me, if i want a girl, i go all out for just one and not anyone else…..”
me: …. (eruption of euphoria)
i melted not because of the heat of the sun.
although it was really a hot day.
finally squeezed a little time to do a post this week.
finals is in roughly one-and-a-half month’s time.
le boyfriend and i are desperately trying to study while not losing too much of our together time.
we pretty much try to finish our revision in the day and talk on the phone almost every night before we hit the bed. this is to compensate the lack of face-to-face dates. on days when we feel inseparable, we can be on the phone for 7 hours, till we both fall asleep or when the sun becomes visible. on days when we find ourselves in need of more personal time, be it for self-study/school activities/ family time/ social life/ etc, we will not be on the phone. Of course this is not done abruptly. We will notify each other beforehand by text/phone call.
so what’s the moral of the story?
being together as a couple doesn’t mean losing alone time or social life. as long as you two come up with a plan together on how time should be spent, with both parties coming to an agreement, you should still be able to enjoy your personal space as well as your couple time. if the plan can’t be followed through for the day, communication is key. the worst thing you want is your partner to lose faith in you for not sticking to the agreed schedule. in the first place, don’t set a schedule when you can’t follow. this should keep arguments at the bay. next, be truthful about your reasons for not being able to stick to the schedule. you can’t blame your partner for being paranoid if you keep “disappearing”. rather than leaving rooms for your partner’s imagination, filling the gaps with facts might just be the remedy for your partner’s paranoia. lastly, make good use of technology to bridge the distance. though there are times when you can’t be physically together with each other, there are so many ways to make you feel that you are with each other. you can share details of your life by texting, taking selfies, or ringing the phone.
but still, i really hope teleportation works so i can teleport over to see le boyfriend :(
praying hard to pass my driving test in April so that i can drive to see le boyfriend. why are we living so far apart on this not-really-that-huge island?!